Confusion

I have done a lot of thinking today about the things going on in my life at this present time. I don't know which way is up right now. My beliefs are getting stronger and my therapy is getting harder. They just don't really mesh with each other. I don't really know what to do with this. I'm trying not to decide what the end is before I know it. This is hard for me. That is what I got called out on the other day. This confusion is making my head hurt. I don't know who to really talk to about it, because no one really understands. I don't even really understand. I hope I can figure this out really soon.