The Darkness

Tonight I was at church and I needed to go into the office. All the lights were out and I had to walk across the room to get to the light switch. I did this three times. The first time I was a bit shaky (I'm afraid of the dark) but I held my breath and made it through. The second time I thought I saw something move and at first I started to freak out about it, then I remembered one of the Bible verses I've been reading and I spoke out loud (at no one in particular) "you will not win this time!" It worked!! The third time I went in I wasn't even scared!

John 12:46 "I have come into the world as a light, so that no one who believes in me should stay in darkness."

God is our light and salvation. There is no other way to look at it. I need to continue to put my faith in God and his Word, so that I will grow stronger. This is my goal for tomorrow....To read more of God's word and when I feel sad or afraid to remember to have faith in what God wants for me.

A Hard Day

Today has been really hard for me. I am trying to look at the light and stay out of the darkness, but it is really hard right now. I don't know what to say in times like these. I feel so scared and stupid. Scared of why I am going thru this and stupid because others see me go thru it. Especially my wonderful husband and son. I love them both so much and they are such a great support to me. Sometimes I don't even feel I deserve them. I have to let God be my strength right now because I'm just worn out and have no strength left in me. I can always hope for a better tomorrow. Until then....

Michele

Soar Like an Eagle

Today was a weird day for me. I've been rather anxious all day and I don't know why. I just kept reminding myself of the beautiful revealing verses I've been reading in the Bible Enjoying them even more because I believe them now!I think one of the first eyeopeners for me was Nehemiah 9:31 "But in your great mercy you did not put an end to them or abandon them, for you are a gracious and merciful God." He DID NOT abandon me, I abandoned me but he did not. Isaiah 40:29-31
29 "He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.

30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint."
When I read those words "soar on wings like eagles" I feel a joy in my heart that I have never felt before. God wants us to soar! Not walk around with our heads low and be sad. I am working toward that soaring everyday. I used to think I would never get there, but now I see it is possible. What a wonderful light to have.
Michele

Here we go!!!

OK I have no clue what I am doing but I'm going to give this a shot! Today I came home from a small mental trip and I'm very grateful to my family for supporting me and staying with through this time. I've learned a lot about my life and I hope I will continue to learn with God's help. God has so many amazing things to say to me and I haven't been paying attention. It is time for me to start listening. I have started by getting into His word everyday so far. He is truly amazing!



Thank you for reading my blog. Let's see how this goes.
Michele